He was fixing a lot of things around the house. I sat in my room and thought to myself 'I wish he could fix me'
but how could he? he was the one that did the breaking.
it was actually a really nice day yeaterday. i had a lot of things on my mind that i managed to get sorted out, so i felt calm. serene almost.
i had to pick some things up for him from the bike shop. i felt stupid for doing it for him. it's like my friend said, if he can't commit to me then he should commit to doing his own shit...
i'm too soft on him. the small things in life still mean the most to me. the way he holds me when we're in bed. how he makes me smile when i'm down (even when i'm down about him - weird). i've been doing my uni application and he's helped me with that, a lot.
he's generous, kind and he cares. and he's my friend. nothing more.
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I don't know you at all but I did read quite a few of your blogs. Just as an outsider looking in I would say you are too wrapped up in a guy that doesn't seem to see you in the same light as you see him.
You are way too young to be feeling the way you do. Now is the time for you to feel free of burden and stress that society puts on you as you get older.
From 18-25 your life should be yours and no one elses. Don't live for him. Live for you.
Be selfish and make yourself happy. Meet new guys that make you laugh and NOT cry. Reading these blogs makes me sad that you cry so much. No one should be crying as much as you do. Life isn't that bad unless you want it to be.
Here's to hoping you can see through the facade and move onto better things.
Good Luck
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