"I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you've seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in"



It's going to be a long time until I get to see him. We can make this work. I know we can.
I'm not getting in as deep, as quickly as last time. I'm scared, we've lost the total unconditional trust we had last time. But we're strong - we know what went wrong last time and we can learn from our mistakes, we are older and I know that I for one have grown up a hell of a lot. I'm getting a lot of stick for going back there from people who don't know the whole story but these things happen don't they? The people who matter have simply said "I'm happy when you're happy, if you're not happy then I won't be either"
I don't know what I've missed most. The words, the comfort of knowing someone is always there to talk to twenty four hours a day, being wanted just for being myself. It makes me feel good about myself again. "We will make up for the lost time... I don't want to lose you again."
It's nice.