A nice little phone call just now. Spoke to L (the old manager). I really miss him you know!!
Me: Leona!! [pet name...]
L: Bonnet!! [pet name also...]
Me: Can I work with you? I hate W. He's not payed me. He's make me take time off so I wont get paid for this week either. He's dead negative. I hate him!
L: I'm not allowed to babe. Regional manager says I'm not. I really tried.
Me: I'm going then, I'm sick of all the crap I've had from them.
L: I'm not far behind you. I'm getting shit everyday from the regional manager.

So, they're losing a branch manager, me, 5 others from my branch are near leaving and when L leaves, the 5 people he took from our branch to his new one will leave too. You know, I wouldn't mind, but they've ripped apart a group of people who were doing phenomenally well together and now they're losing all of them? doesn't sound like good management to me?


Anyway in happier news, HSM3 was amazing!! I've had a really lovely day and feel quite refreshed, thank you very much :)
I think the first thing that's going to change in this big life turnaround is all this negativity I seem to hold all the time, I'm so sick of it!! I hate feeling down so much and I don't really know how it's going to change but it bloody well is, I tell you! I have good feelings about the future, so what, I'm living at my mums again, get messed about by men [i'm sure I have doormat tattooed on my forehead], I'm in a crap job looking for something else and I'm in shit loads of debt... But I've got friends and family who love me, a good head on these shoulders of mine, a pretty enough face [not stunning, but you know... it'll do?] and the whole of my future to look forward to.

Sometimes I just think maybe I need a fresh start? Save up for a while, get a job somewhere else, move away, a little house in the country maybe. But then I think, whatever problems I have here, I'll have them wherever I go won't I? Running away wont solve anything, I'm going to feel like this wherever I go, the thing is if I go far away I'll just be even more lonely and where's the sense in that? So I just stay here. I feel discontent, I think that's what i'm trying to say.

It's nice to dream though, sometimes isn't it?