feel.

look and touch. feel my heart, jumping out of my chest. car parks at 1am, anonymity. i'll never see you again and maybe there's comfort in that, maybe there isn't. adrenaline through my veins, like a drug. clean now, for i don't know how long. i've reached a new place where i can turn my lows into highs, without drugs.
changes.
out with the old and in with the new.
mundanities of day to day life, so exciting because they're new to me. i'll learn soon enough.
welcome home. help yourself to what you like - that's something i never had when i lived here.
packing, unpacking.
changes.
appreciated for who i am, not what i could be. cared for, by stranger. awkward silences. wide smiles.
touch me. feel me.
i want the playfullness, the teasing. i want this to change.
no more lurking about for me. changes. i'm going to live the way i want to love.
xxx