i will follow you into the dark.

i want to know all about you. your past, your present, your future.
what shaped you to be the person you are now. i know some of it, but not all. bits and pieces. drugs. a daughter. vicious family.
we've got a lot in common, you just don't know all of it yet - but i know i can trust you.

"No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs"

i lost my job yesterday. a months notice which i dont need to work.
back to thre job hunt, the uncertainty. except i need the money now, i don't just want it. i've got a life to live, bills to pay.
if i worry all the time i can't enjoy my time with you and that's the only thing i live for at the moment. i feel like the way i feel for you is going to drown me, drown me in happiness and sorrow at the same time. a death i can't contemplate. you changed it all, changed how i felt about it all and i don't know whether to thank you or not for that.