He didn't mean to make me cry. But he did. It wasn't his fault that hot tears were rolling down my face, but they were there all the same. All he did was laugh at my hair, i normally would have laughed at it with him.
I've been having more 'wobbles' than normal, lately. Anything that anyone says can set it off.
I cry because I miss him so, so much. It hurts, it's a lump at the base of my throat that wont go away, that grazes every time i breathe.
It's loneliness and being away from someone that I feel so strongly about, it's being scared every time the war in the middle east comes onto the TV (what if it's him who's dead this time?), it's knowing that he wants me not to be a smoker and hating myself every time i light up, it's waiting anxiously for the phone to ring and most of all it's knowing that he makes me happy and that September 20th will be one hell of a happy day.

In other news, someone offered to but me a rampant rabbit if I let him watch me the first time I used it (no), I turned my hair ginger and i've had a killer of a sinus infection.
that's all for now lovelies... there's be a more substantial post soon =D