Where's the comedown?

Friday night we were going to be good. We had lots of things to do on Saturday.
Coke, pills, beer, weed and 12 hours of hammering it later we were just going to bed - 2 hours before we had to be up to go and view houses.
It's all good, it was all free, and it was one of the best nights I've ever had. I'm still waiting for the comedown but feeling guilty, I said I'd do that one last pill and thast was it.
Found both the house and apartment of our dreams, we've got to choose by tonight which one to go for by tonight! I've handed my notice in to my landlord (well his son, he's away for the next 3 weeks) and begged him to write me a nice reference. Dont think my future landlord would like to know that I still owe good old Bill around £100 in arrears.
P has broken his silence and it turns out he's been at sea for the last week, he promised to call me last night and I'm still waiting for the phone call. He comes home very soon now. He'll be here for 2 weeks and then he'll be back to the Widdle East until January.

"I'm floating down a river
Oars freed from their holds long ago
Lying face up on the floor of my vessel
I marvel at the stars
And feel my heart overflow

Two weeks without my lover
I'm in this boat alone
Floating down a river named emotion
Will I make it back to shore
Or drift into the unknown

I'm building an antenna
Transmissions will be sent when I am through
Maybe we could meet again further down the river
And share what we both discovered...
Then revel in the view"

The home situation still hasn't improved much. The housemate has his girlfriend (who he swore he's never get back with) staying with us at the moment, she's having problems with her neighbours. She's an alright girl (if a bit on the loud side) and I don't mind her staying with us. It's just the 3 year old (his) and the 3 month old baby (the father's in prison) that bother me. I had to leave early for the weekend because it's really upsetting me.
I'm happy for him because he's happy, but you can't turn off your feelings for someone no matter how hard you try. I am getting better about it - I don't feel nearly as much for him as I used to.
When all you've ever wanted is a chance to have a family of your own and also managed to completely fuck up the chances of having the baby you long to have, it's hard to have a happy family living right under your nose.
That's why I am so eager to move out as soon as possible, amongst other things.
I start at uni very very soon now, it's quite scary!! I've recieved all the info about my student loan and it's far more than I expected to get which is all good.
Up and down, backwards and forward, life is always changing. Whats was bad yesterday may be good tomorrow. I always try to change my perspective when I'm down. It doesn't always work but it's worth a try, isn't it?