High

Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
'Cause even the impossible
Is easy when we got each other
One day 'we're gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
Remember the days
When we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through the night
The end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you.

'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love
'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love
Lighthouse Family - High

It was a beautiful morning, crisp and cold, clear and sunny. I'd been underwear shopping ready for the following weekend when P was coming to visit. I waled through the town centre, stopped to talk to a friend I'd not seen in ages.
A colleague saw me and stopped, wanting to talk to me.
I've got some good news and some bad news, she said.
I'll tell you the good news first.Phil's daughter was born friday. Bad news; She'll never see him. He was found dead yesterday morning, he overdosed, there was a note next to his body.

Remember the housemate? He helped me through a hell of a lot, looked after me when P was never there and now he's gone.

I never went to work yesterday, I was in shock most of the day. It hit me at about 6 o'clock. I was on the phone to Bestest trying to explain why I wasn't going out for drinks. It hit me like a ton of bricks. Loud, racking sobs, i couldn't stop and I was on the phone. You known that crying when you can't even breathe? My throat is red raw, my head hurts and I haven't slept. I just keep crying. Surely my body ran out of water last night? Obviously not.

Not sure how I'll cope at work today.