Take what you take.

"And I don't think, you see the places inside me that I find you,
And I don't know, how we separate the lies here from the truth,
And I don't know, how we woke up one day somehow thought we knew,
Exactly what we're supposed to do."
Rise Against - Roadside

perhaps i relate to song lyrics a bit too much. i can always seem to find a song that matches how i feel. i've been finding it hard to find inspiration lately, for my writing. that's how i know that things are going bad.
but you know, i feel good...
well, i do about some things.

i feel like things are getting very confusing at the moment, people are talking a lot of bullshit and the new job isn't as good as it was to start off with.
my mum is spouting bullshit too, and one of my best friends is being a total dick to me.
friends is nice, eh??
people can't get their small heads around the fact that i'm not drinking as much as i was before, i can't get it into their very fucking small heads that alcohol makes me feel like SHIT, all they say to me is 'go get drunk, it'll make you feel better, it'll take your mind off things' when no, all it'll do is give me a shit hangover the next day, and on the night make me think about how whit things have been lately.
sorry, thats just the way it is.
who the hell are you though?? mr and miss i spend all my money on beer on a weekend and make myself feel like shit for the rest of the time i'm not drinking.
i'd rather go and spend my money on lots of fucking drugs and blast my head off for a weekend, at least i'd feel happy while i was high...
life's about choices, but at the moment all you do is give me shit about my choices, i'm stupid to take drugs, i'm stupid to not drink, i'm stupid stupid stupid...
is that what you think?