Apache Rose Peacock

Apache Rose Peacock
Ever thought to change your life completely?
I'm doing it.
Apache rose peacock, that's me. New beginnings and all that, none of that new age rebirth shit though...
I'm going to be who I want to be. Not what someone else wants me to be.
Totally clean, no bad feelings, no pain, no unhappiness.
Guilt free.I want to dance like i've not a care in the world.
Smile like I mean it.

"Things will never be the same
Still Im awfully glad I came
Resonating in the shape of things to come
Never waiting when I know theres only one
Messed it up but rest assured
No one ever thinks they're cured
Just a minute while I reinvent myself
Make it up and then I take it off the shelf"
Red Hot Chili Peppers - Midnight

Make me who i want to be. So i can be me again.
Don't look at me like i speak a foreign tongue. Don't believe i can do it?
Fuck you. Make me happy, show me why you don't believe in me.
I asked you over and over, and all you did was stand there and ignore me... you chose for it to be this way and now you want it all back. it doesn't work that way. this is all on my terms now... we go the way i want to go... if i want 'we' to happen again at all.
don't sweat it. you'll find out my answer soon enough.
Just a minute while i reinvent myself...
i'll still be me. i promise. i'm just going to be a stronger person. more love for myself, more self respect. more 'me' time, pamper time.
no more fucking about with this girls head.
I can finally look into the past and realise that i did and said terrible things. i'm ashamed, but i don't regret. never regret.
things will never be the same again. and i'm glad.